The Little Music Maker

Friendships:

I woke up this morning to many smses that once again flooded my inbox and was happy to receive a pleasant one from a dear friend, AC, who encouraged me and commented on my playing. Thank you.

And i headed down to JW to have lunch with my band mates and spent time talking and sharing with my dear friends. Thank you Jebasingh and Weiting for waiting for me. I should come down to meet you all often to have lunch.

Then i had a good but short time talking to LH. I enjoyed the friendship and of course i’m happy that things are HEEE in his life, and things are awesome. What’s good about the friendship is, we’re really awesome friends and we’re THERE for each other.

And then i had a good time having nothing on today and went to the library with Aldrich (for once, it’s a proper name). We had dinner too and had a good time talking. Hmmm…. neutral standing boy. Interesting. Anyway, thanks for the time spent. Happy reading your bible!

Then i headed down town with SH and we’d good ice cream time. And i really enjoy the friendship that we share. I can’t seem to be able to describe appropriately without sounding silly, but well, i thank God alot for the frienship we’ve built stable-ly and strongly recently. Thank you for always being so generous, i am certainly impressed by your generousity.

We then met JY and had Ramen, which WT came to join us much later. We stayed til almost 3 and we just allowed ourselves to be ourselves. I love it when friends stand up for each other and speak up for each other. They’re boys, but i think it’s good to make GOOD guy-friends. I think God is good, because he spoke to me about this area regarding guys and he told me that he’ll bless me with lots of good guy friends in my life if i were to let go of a particular relationship and i did; and he did too. I thnk i have more jiang yi qi guy friends than alot of other people. But i thnk God answered my prayer recently, cos it was just yesterday that i found out, i am REALLY under a GREAT leader, DY.

In the car, i shared with him as openly like usual, and he said “even if u don’t say it, i know because i’ve counselled many people before…” and… “if i were to be involved, i’ll throw an atomic bomb and make sure he leaves and never come back…” I am really touched although silence was in the midst of chaos, i felt there was someone rooting for me, and perhaps praying for me. I think i could safely say, “I’ve found my family.”

Perhaps there are too many things that happened in my life to put a proper statement to issues that comes in and out, but “I just want you…..” and that’s good enough to answer all the issues i have in life.

I cried a bucket-full of tears yesterday and this morning and feel pretty much alot and it’s strange. And then sometimes i realised there are people on another side of the scale which hasn’t gone through much in their life and thank God you’ve a good life.

Alright, i am going to pray. I feel this strange “unknown” burden lifted off me today and it’s like as if i’m re-walking a route that God has created directing back to my “normal” self. I think God has created me for a reason and He loves me a great deal that no matter how much ups and downs i go through as a girl, i am still loved and there is a big reason for continue living again and the ability to challenge any problems thrown at me. I like garang people - people who are passion-driven, tough, self-motivated, vocal, independent, opinionated but above all else, people who are compassionate, love God and people, and has a gentle spirit. The irony? Haha.

I think something is happening around me and i am feeling SO weird about it. HA! Love you if you’re reading this. HAHA!

I like Erika.

2nd child! Why u so quiet today!

I’m so messy. I think we’re 3 mad people.

Yay, i like the photo! Guess who’s the oldest? Hmm. ME lar!

YAY…. i think i look chaat chaat……… nobody wanna take photo with me..

Hee, but i can’t be bothered lar. It’s good to be young and it’s good to be mixing around with young ones.

I love my band and my singers. I hope we’ll really build good and proper friendships with each other and make a good team for the next generation. Well, but i guess, we ARE the next generation.

God bless us, and our friendships. May we have great longevity in the ministry. Love ya guys!

I’d dance class today and i’m a background dancer. I am so stiff that i am so hmmmmm…… Haha, i used to be able to dance quite a bit in Primary school HAHAHAHAHAHHA and then came down to sec school….. and then i became a stiff chicken. Okay, i’ve gotta loosen up and be just this NICE GROOVY girl again. WAH i realised some people REALLY can dance and some people REALLY hmmm….. HAHAHA!!!!

I don’t know why, but i’ve been on the high recently and i think i’m learning how to build proper friendships with people around me. I want the world to know that having good friendships and relationships is important and the basis of that is being friendly and kind and being YOURSELF and being real. HEE!!!

So anyway, one of my newest friends is Stephanie. We look like woodblock today. Next week will be better!

That’s LH’s jacket. I’m mini man! And look at the background. HEEEE do u see who i see. HAHAHAHHAA damn funny. Haha!!!

Smile smile…. Tell me when u like someone. Cos i wanna know. hEE!!!

My big brother! Hahaha!!!!

Wooo, my big boss. I’m the mini secretary! Hee!

Well, that’s all for dance class today. BUT…….. after the class, we had supper at kopitiam and guess who i saw………………

Okay, i know i’m SUPER ugly in this picture, but i had to put it up to show the world HAHAHHAHAH!!!!!

I was just saying in  my previous post that someone commented on my status and i went craxy like mad…. and today after the dance class, i met HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he came up to me and said “Hi…” I literally scream at the stall that i was buying my food at. I couldn’t help it. It was like “OMG!!!!!!!!!!” I think i grabbed him and was like “AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” My heart melted okay, it did. I even got Terence to bring my food back for me cos i was really like…. “AH NICK, i miss u alot, and i was just thinking about u the other time… and here you are…. standing right in front of me…” I’d supposed the 2 persons that make me go crazy was Farid and Nick (and Farid, u’re reading my BLOG lar!!!) Haha. Okay, anyway, i couldn’t help it. HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I couldn’t imagine myself getting crazy over a friend since like i was 16 and then even when i was attached at 17-19, i was also crazy, and then when i was 20 i met up with my friend again, and then when i got attached from 22-22, i was still talking about him. And then, now that i’m crazily 24 years old, when i see him, i still scream. Sick right! But well, perhaps cos i was really crazy over him. Haha, don’t talk about my 2 ex boyfriends, just talk about good friends that make me go crazy - already enough liaoz. But these 2 friends are great people, and we’ve never been together. Correct MHD FARID! Haha!!!!

So well, we had a good talk today and he is still the same so calm…. so gentle… so nice… and still laugh the same… and he told me that i look so different now with my copper and purple hair… and he said but i’m still the same….. He’s on braces too…. and so am i….. and we realllllyyyyyyyy were like… “AW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” Okay, that makes me feel like asking him out one day to just catch up with life. WAHHHHHHHHHHHH i think if i’m ever going out with him again, i’ll just go like “HEY WORLD, i’m going out with my 1st BIG CRUSH.” But honestly, my heart skipped that one bit when i saw him. AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay, my table of friends know how mad i was…… and it was like as if, i was so so so mad….. yes i was mad. GILA PAPAYA!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, HEEEEEEEE i suddenly miss my victoria friends…..

FARID faster come back from canada… and buy some nice things for me from NY!!!!! Haha, really very happy that we’re still good friends after so many years…… and i think i’ll still go mad and crazy over you when u play ur oboe or something. HAHAHAHAH!!!! OBOE - squeaky toy! Well, at least i’m frank to say that i admire ur talent okAY!

Those were the days my friends……. I was like 16? AH!!!!!!!!!! Haha…

So anyway, i was sitting on a different table from my usual boys cos i wanna get to know the girls from the other clan better… like Erika, Eileen, Stephanie….. and perhaps Adila, Schumann…. and Terence, Renata and Gary joined the table later on…..

It was good talking time and it made me feel very happy to be able to know new friends and to really spend time talking and talking and talking again. I like it when there are new faces and new people around for me to know. So WELL, if you’re ever reading this, please  know that i’m REALLY very happy to know you guys and girls. I hope we’ll build good friendships with each other and stay this way in the ministry, and serve God together this way too!

I’ve recently found out that my friend likes another friend and i’m happy to hear that. Please know that i’ll keep mum about it and i’ll take care of what’s happening around you. Be blessed and more importantly, be happy!!!

Okay, enough rattling. i am SO DUPER SUPER WAHHHAHHAH HAPPY today cos i killed 2 birds with one big stone. HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m so sure, the notes that i’ve written on my fb about the very person i had a big crush one, is now having a pun to it. Hmmmm……………….. one day, one day… i will tell you about it….

OH, why do i have so many stories to tell. Heee, cos my life is STORY-FILLED!!!!

My life is interesting. Heee, i hope yours is interesting too! God make me small but powerful! Oh yeah!!!!

I just put this photo up on my facebook to show the world that this is the youth heavenly beans band. HAHAHAHAHA!!!! And i tagged our 3 big hits on those musical notes, plus our 3 great teachers in the background. HAHAHAH!!!!! OH i love my band!!!!

I think i am SO SMALL that i can sit in a washing machine….

PARTY PARTY PARTY PARTY!!!!

LH will LOVE this cos it’s CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love PARTIES…. especially if u party with awesome company of friends…. We drank a whole lot and talked nonsense a whole lot…. But well, i guess it’s the best part of my short overseas study trip… Sometimes you just meet people ONCE and they’re gone.

YAH, party freaks…. Hmmm, i’m not that wild anyway, I’m just very playful.

WAHHHH HANDSOME JESSEL YAM AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha, i think i was only hmmm 20 or something then…. COLOURFUL and crazy!

And i love my sister. We are great room mates and great friends. Party alot!!!

Okay, i’m going for classes again and at night, DANCING time!!!

See you then!!!!

I want to go America. And i’m missing my friends. I don’t think we’ll meet anytime soon, probably just get to see what’s going on in each other’s life in facebook. Now, i kinda appreciate facebook. I hope everyone’s doing good. AND sad thing is everyone has completed their studies, but not me. I am still doing my uni. OMG!!!!!!!! See lar, defer… and wait lar… alamak. But i’ll complete my uni in my life time that is!!!

Hey, travelling queen…. which part of the world are you at now?!!!!

Paintball and racist king. We sure had lots of crazy things to talk about then….. AH, hope you 2 are good! And aaron, you remind me so much of nick during the whole trip….. u sure do.

My crazy room mates who were all from the same course…. FMS. Haha. Hope to go out soon!

I am still naughty and michevious. I think i am doing my hair black and straight. It’s so nice right as compared to the colourful head now. Alright… black hair, here i come.

There’s dancing class on Tuesday and i’m lookin’ forward to it with my girls and BOYS hahahha!!!! I hope it’ll be fun, oh yah it would be cos it’s a whole lot of us friends…. I should wear my cap and my berms.. Been a long time since i last wore them. Alright! See you all tomorrow.

I think i’m beautiful HAHAHAHAHHAHA and i should learn how to be less tomboy in the way i talk. Okay, calm calm, i’m going to be a girl from now onwards.

Miss Glyn…. So sexy and pretty. This is a nice LOW V neck for girls. HEE!!!! I think my hair colour looks chaat chaat…. i’m going to change it soon….

My favourites HAHAH!!! Terence LEONG and Adila. Haha, MR T, i enjoyed the fellowship we had for the past 2 sundays. It was awesome. Heee…… gotta tell Adila how we made fun of him…. “Ehhhhh……… you led pnw just for wedding?………..ORrhhhh…………….. Eh………………..” HAHAHA i can’t stand it, i can’t stand it!!!!!! I think we’re so crazy! “Ehhhh……………….where u serving this week…………….. eh…………….” Wah, just sms man, i get faster answers. HAHAHAH!!!!!

YAY!!!! I think the boys look so good last weekend with all the button shirts and stuff, esp LH ah!!! Handsome young boy ah!!!! My hair colour really look chaat chaat.

The Sax player! Woohoo!!!! Next time my wedding, come play for me!!!!

AH You again!!!! Grow up together since 13… and from then till now i haven’t seem to grow an inch taller. Let it be, i’m happy like that HEE!!! Faster go find gf! Haha!!! And remember to be careful on who’s toes you step on.

Okay, that’s like half of YOUR face and that finger belongs to LH. HAHAHHAHA!!!!!!!

OH eye ball! I tell you, there are some things which i hate like crazy and am totally grossed out when i see people doing it. Fish Spa to me is ultimate gross and i hate it. I feel like putting a bomb into the tank and kill all the fishes. And another thing i hate is seeing people putting contact lense or seeing people going through some eye operation. I hate anything that have to do with eye balls. YUCKS! And for once, i’m taking photo with a big eye ball. Okay, i feel like kicking it or pinching it. HAHA… so anyway, if u wear contact lense, please stay away from me when u’re putting it on. I am SUPER grossed out by it. HAHAHAH!!!!!

YAY, i’m going for classes now. And i’ve been recently VERY addicted to lamb chop. CHOP CHOP CHOP AH!!!!!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can’t help but SCREAM HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heeeeee… OHHH somebody commented on my facebook status today and i literally went crazy!!!! AHHH!!!!! Hahahhahahahaa….. AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahaha, take ur time to find out who!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think i am one of the craziest person. Cos hmmm, he was the very first person i had a BIG major crush on when i was hee 17. OMG!!!!!!!! Can’t stand it.

Now, i’m thanking God for facebook. HEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh well, he’s such a scholarboy - an atas one man!!!! Okay, i’m smiling for the longest time….

Perhaps only 3 people can make me smile now…………. the reappearance of a friendly friend…… a funny star…. and hmmmmm…… a far away friend.

Okay, dun need to understand what i’m trying to say. JUST KNOW, i’m SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA!!!!

Congrats to Charles and Allia.

I attended their wedding and was feeling a whole lot when i saw the videos and heard the band play. AW!!! I just feel like getting married - skip the attach part. Anyway, i think i’m going to be a happy 24 year old this year. I used to have funny thoughts previously and then i realised, “OH perhaps NOT, and perhaps NEVER.” And yst when i hanged out with LH and FC, i said something which i think it’s so ironic. AH!

Well, for a good note. I want a wedding with great music, great friends and great parties.

“Don’t ever lose the spark.” And, for that, in the things that i’m doing, i hope i’m never losing it.

Okay, it’s “read-bible-time”. Good night world. See you tomorrow!

Let me leave u with some photos…

I really love my band. I think we make a great team and i wished Ws brought Gladys, so we could talk and spend time at least.

Singers singers… funny singers. Thank you for the nice friendship over the years Terence. And adila, see you around. OH no, my eyes look chaat chaat….

Glyn, Sendy and me. I am so short and small. Mini-tiny-me.

LH likes this photo. HAHA, i think i was nice and pretty then. OH i was so young…..

And then i think i grew older and i look chaat chaatly older…

I want to complete many things that i’ve started off and left it half way done.

Alright, good night. I’m going to read.

Bye!

I am in deep thought about an issue: relationship.
I’ve heard about someone who’s got deeply hurt and i am sorry about it.
Somehow i feel bad when i heard it but i haven’t any say about it.
I just feel sorry that you are so hurt. May God heal you.

I am in deep thought about an issue: money.
I’ve heard about someone who’s got deeply into debt and i am sorry about it.
Somehow i feel bad when i heard it but i haven’t any way to help you.
I just feel sorry that you are in debt. May God provide for you.

Okay. I am going to sleep.
May God give you good rest despite the problems that you are going through.
Please know that i, as a friend and as a sister-in-christ, loves and is praying for you.

Trust God that He can and that He will work something out for you.
Meanwhile, step out in faith and do something that you’ve never done before….
Who knows? A miracle might happen because you took a STEP of faith to do something different.
God sees and He knows. Please understand that WE have overcome the world.
Bad things happen to people and they are not to destroy us but to make us stronger.

I’ve always believed in a quote i made up myself:
In life, there are problems. But problems have a lifespan in the lifespan of our lives.
So just know that “There is no life without problems, and there is no problems without a lifespan.”

Be strong, i love you.

Good night.

OH i miss Chikara and Taka alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot and i wish i can go back to visit them very soon. I’m really missing them! AW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, if u are a singer or sound crew and u’re ever reading this….. PLEASE do not take this personally. I just found these photos when i was browsing through my hard disk and decided to post them up to remind ourselves that we are crazy enough to even have done this.

HAHAHA i shouldn’t say who did it but we are really so crazy to even have this done up to protect ourselves from all darts aiming at us. Anyway, peace to all singers or sound crews. We love you.

Oh on a good note, we met up today for music workshop and it was awesome. I’m feeling a need to change and acquire a new skill, taste, sound, tone and feel to music. I like it pretty much when the organ kicks in and it does make the whole music better. I’m learning it slowly but surely. I like it even more when we sat down for supper and we talked and i seriously mean, we TALK - not nonsense, but deep, provoking and heart-searching matters. Not that we pour our hearts out to each other, but a challenge in our thinking that make me go “I am having such a good time here man.”

I asked my BMD several questions that i’ve always had in mind since 5 years ago or so, growing up in church. And he gave me really profound answers backed with biblical principles. I was in awe honestly. Perhaps cos no leader i’ve known in my entire life speaks in this manner - to challenge a thought and not say yes to everything is what matters. Being a “yes man or yes mdm” doesn’t help and doesn’t state that you’re a good christian, it simply means u just say yes to everything, u dumb-o.

I like what i hear and i’m so appreciative and thankful (although DY will think that i’m poring him, oh whatever), that i’m able to hear such stuff and learn them. I just love to hear him talk about this kinda stuff. Cos perhaps i’ve found that we all share pretty much the same kinda values and we’re not afraid to cook up a commotion for what we believe in and STAND for what we believe in.

I was provoked recently by what i heard and my ear became so itchy that i can’t stop scratching it. I will stand and continue to STAND on stage and serve and play the keyboard with boldness. And i won’t fear you who have said those interesting words that tickled my ears to itch. My friend, Stephanie, will shine with God’s glory and she will prove her path taken worthwhile. Time will tell, the difference between a spiritual being and a non-spiritual being. HAHA, i believe everyone is spiritual… but are u….2/3 spiritual, 1/3 natural or are you 2/3 spiritual, 1/3 supernatural? Yenhao said that. HAHAHAH!!!!

Well, for a good moment of laughter, i’ve concluded further that i will STAND. Oh, not i will but WE WILL STAND up for each other, fight for each other, speak up for each other and walk or run with each other. And that’s my excellent and awesome statement of friendship that i’ve built in my ministry. I’ve realised that no other friends are more true, genuine and real than these group of believers - christians (well, my girls are the same too).

I heard the story that DY shared about his cgms and i am amazed. I am SO amazed. He really is not just a PK, but one who is an awesome leader and a friend.

Today, i’ve learnt: how to play organ haha, how to play 2 notes on the kb haha and how to save my settings on the kb. HEEE…. and i’ve learnt better to be a brother’s keeper, to be a friend that stand up for each other and fight for each other, to be a spiritual person without having the need to prove my spirituality by works cos my fruit will count itself worth, and be led by the Spirit. Yes, i love us. We are spiritual beings and spiritual people but we’re not flaky or super xiao “holy holy oh God holy holy” people.

Also, i bump into my best friend at Clementi today and made a remark on people’s countenance and how to judge their countenance. Interesting some people ONLY based their judgement on countenance to ask if one’s doing well or not. Looking lok kok, or having a glum face might not necessarily mean a person is NOT doing well or what. Have you seen mediacorp artists? They’re always dressed up and have good make up on but i haven’t excatly seen one with “bad countenance”… so are they christians in the first place to say that they are looking good? No.

I couldn’t further emphasis on this.

Okay, anyway, it’s enough for this kinda “super spiritual” stuff that i’ve been talking about recently cos i was darn provoked by what i heard from my friend who is going through a bad time.

PLEASE, only the WORD of God will judge. Just my few cents worth of rattling. So argumentative, i know. But well, at least i dare to say it. Point proven. LALALALALAL!!!!

I honestly LOVE MY BAND. I have an AWESOME leader. Thanks DY for being so inspirational! We love you!!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!